Miscellaneous Oddities & Schtuff I Dig

A bit of this, that, and the other.

Right Back Atcha Baby…

 
Reflecting Beauty

IMG_0644This is my newest talisman necklace. It’s a concave silver disc with a single drop of gold in the dish. It reminds me of a satellite dish. The meaning I’ve attached to it is that it reflects your beauty back to you.

It has a very long handmade chain.  It hangs at the level of my solar plexus (under my boobs and above my belly button.)

When I’m having a bad day, I wear it reversed to reflect my beauty inward. On those days, I need all the help I can get!   The necklaces I wear everyday are filled with meaning and magic.  They help me remember to connect with my beauty and not just my mess.


 

The artisan of this piece is Lilbitty on Etsy

Happiness after loss?

resilient you are

Yes You Can

I was asked to be a part of a very cool free event and what’s even more amazing is I said yes! I’m pretty picky about what I say “yes” to when it comes to being interviewed for A Beautiful Mess Inside. If I don’t get a clear “hell yes” in my gut when I investigate the organization I bow out. I also abhor things that come with hidden strings or affiliate marketing.

So when Lois McCullough, approached me about being on the panel for The Art of Happiness After Loss Summit, I needed to see if we had the serendipitous connection so necessary of me.  She’s passionate about finding joy again after loss. It’s a personal mission for her. She lost her husband, to cancer, 6 years ago and was left with two young sons to raise. She says about life…

“We’re here for a good time, not a long time. Make that time count!”

We beautiful messes inside have had losses in our lives that left us wondering how we were ever going to experience happiness again. You know life can joyful and fun again, but you have no idea how to find those things for yourself anymore.

Those of you familiar with my story know that my father died suddenly when I was 14 years old. His early death shaped my life and no doubt contributed to my passion about learning to embrace both the beauty and messes in our lives.

The Summit finished up in August.  I’m pleased with how the interview turned out.  I hope you find something meaningful in there for just for you.

 

Grief

 

The Most Beautifully Messy Movie List of All Time

movie listA while back, on a whim, I decided to ask the beautiful messes inside on Facebook to share with me what their favorite beautiful mess inside movies were.  Almost 600 comments later, the mother of lists was being compiled!  I present it to you below. Enjoy!

I’d love to hear from you. What movies do you think should be on this list?  Please leave me a comment below with additions and/or your thoughts about the list.

xo,
~the mess

Gold Medal
Steel Magnolias

Silver Medal
Fried Green Tomatoes
The Notebook
Girl, Interrupted

Bronze Medals
Pretty Woman
Hope Floats
Silver Linings Play Book
Love Actually
Eat Pray Love
Beaches
Bridget Jones
Out of Africa
Shawshank Redemption, The
Under the Tuscan Sun
You’ve Got Mail
Serendipity
Sleepless in Seattle
Somewhere in Time
Terms of Endearment
What Dreams May Come

Honor Roll
As Good As It Gets

Breakfast at Tiffany’s
City of Angels
Imitation of Life
Meet Joe Black
P.S. I love you
Practical Magic
Les Miserables
A Walk To Remember
Eternal Sunshine for the Spotless Mind
Family Stone, The
Forrest Gump
Gone With the Wind
Secret Life of Bees, The
28 days
50 First Dates
A Beautiful Mind
Chocolat
Color Purple, The
Divine Secrets of The Ya Ya Sisterhood
Green Mile, The
Holiday, The
How to lose a guy in 10 days
Mama Mia
Notting Hill
Pay It Forward
Pretty in Pink
Pride & Prejudice
Sense & Sensibility
Step-Mom
What the bleep do we know?
An Affair to Remember
Baby boom
Big Chill, The
Blind Side, The
Devil wears Prada
Four Weddings & a Funeral
Ghost
Girl with The Dragon Tattoo
Grease
Help, The
Moonstruck
On Golden Pond
Sweet November
While You Were Sleeping
West Side Story
Whatever Happened to Baby Jane
What’s Eating Gilbert Grape

Honorable Mentions (2 Votes)
10 Things I Hate About You

A Good Year
A Walk in the Clouds
About a Boy
Always
Amelie
American Beauty
An Officer and a Gentleman
Apollo 13
August Rush
Because I Said So
Bed of Roses
Benny and Joon
Billy Elliott
Birds, The
Boys On the Side
Brave
Braveheart
Bridesmaids
Bridges of Madison County
Butch Cassidy and the Sundance Kid
Cocoon
Contact
Dan in Real Life
Dark Knight, The
Dear John
Descent
Despicable Me
DIrty Dancing
Donnie Darko
Driving Miss Daisy
Elizabethtown
Ever After
Facing the Giants
Fight Club
Finding Nemo
First Wives Club
Godfather
Good Will Hunting
Goodbye Girl, The
Guess who’s coming to Dinner
Harold and Maude
He’s just not that into you
Heathers
Hours, The
How to Make An American Quilt
I am Sam
In Her Shoes
Into the Wild
Jerry McGuire
Jumpin’ Jack Flash
Just Married
Lake House, The
Legends of the Fall
Life of David Gale, The
Lion King, The
Little Women
Love and Basketball
Love Story
Mad Love
Made in heaven
Maid in Manhattan
Memoirs of a Geisha
Million Dollar Baby
Mr Holland’s Opus
My Best Friend’s Wedding
My Cousin Vinny
My Girl
My sisters keeper
Natural born killers
Nell
Officer and a Gentleman
Once
One Day
One fine day
One Flew Over the Cuckoos Nest
Ordinary People
Original sin
Pan’s labyrinth
Perfect Storm
Picnic
Princess Bride, The
Proposal, The
Pursuit of Happyness, The
Radio
Raising Arizona.
Red Violin, The
Riding in Cars With Boys
Robin Hood
Rosemary’s Baby
Safe Haven
Saving Grace
Second Hand Lions
Shall We Dance
Something’s Gotta Give
Sweeney Todd
Sweet Home Alabama
The Breakast Club
The Princess Bride
The Secret Garden
The Ugly Truth
The Vow
The Way We Were
The Wizard of Oz
Thelma and Louise
Thomas Crown Affair (Pierce Brosnan)
Time Traveler’s Wife
Titanic
To Kill A Mockingbird
Top Gun
Toy Story
True Romance
Truly Madly Deeply
Twister
Up
Urban Cowboy
When Harry Met Sally
Wuthering Heights

 

 

 

 

Valentine’s Day Ode to My Darling Dopamine


Let’s Get Dopey

(Caveat:  beware of posts that come with caveats.  I don’t usually post scientific stuff because: a) I am not a scientist, b) it’s boring, and c) generally, who cares.  With that said, understanding the basics of dopamine helped me clean up some of my messes.  In honor of Valentine’s Day, I decided to get dopey.)

When I was 7, a non-animated version of Cinderella with Leslie Ann Warren was released. I dreamed of being her. I dreamed of finding him. I knew that when I did everything would be right in my world 4-ever.  Rodgers and Hammerstein provided the music.


PRINCE:
Do I love you because you’re beautiful
Or are you beautiful because I love you?

Am I making believe I see in you a girl too lovely to be really true?

Do I want you because you’re wonderful
Or are you wonderul because I want you?

Are you the sweet invention of a lover’s dream
Or are you really as beautiful as you seem?

CINDERELLA:

Am I making believe I see in you a man too perfect to be really true?
Do I want you because you’re wonderful, or
are you wonderful because I want you?

BOTH:

Are you the sweet invention of a lover’s
dream or are you really as wonderful as you seem?
Do I love you because you are wonderful or are you wonderful because I love you?

Who knew that Cindy and her Prince were right to question what was happening to them?  Little did they know they were under the influence of dope, a.k.a dopamine. (Yes heroin’s nickname “dope” comes from the neurotransmitter dopamine.)

You know how mice like cheese?  How cats dig cat nip?  How dogs drool for treats?  Well that’s how we humans are about dopamine. We love how it makes us feel (and it makes us feel love.)  We must have it (literally.)  We’ll do damn near anything to keep it coming once we’ve found a good supply of it. It’s our reward chemical. It’s the chemical that makes falling in love feel so damn good.

When you are highly attracted to someone and you feel yourself “falling” in love your brain is falling into a big ol’ pool of dopamine. It’s not optional. It’s not your fault.  It just happens.  It is the reason why taking it slowly and not making life altering decisions during the early days of romance are good ideas (and yet so hard.)

Ever wonder why you keep going back to the wrong person even though you know better?  Yep… dopamine.  Your body is gonna seek it and if Mr/Ms Wrong causes your brain to produce dopamine you are headed there whether you like it or not.

Ever heard (or thought) the dreaded “I love you, BUT I’m not in love with you?”  What this really means is “I love you, but you no longer cause my brain to make mass quantities of dopamine so I’m looking elsewhere.”

I wish I had understood about the power of the dopamine when I was younger. Little did I know when an unwanted breakup came my way I needed to find other sources of dopamine.  It wouldn’t have fixed my broken heart, but it would have helped me get back on track.

When I was in the throes of doing stupid things like calling and begging to get back together or coincidentally showing up at the places where I might run into him, I was jonesing not only for him, but for the way he made me feel… for the dopamine I was producing thanks to him.

When you “stalk” someone you love after a breakup, you are really just like a rat seeking cheese, hunting around in cyberspace for your dopamine fix.  Strangely, even seeing his picture on her Facebook page during their weekend at The Cape (which makes you feel like shit) can still spike your dopamine levels for a moment.

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“Stalk” on Facebook  ——> Find Stuff (the Rat finding Cheese) = More Dopamine

Result of Seeing the Pictures or Comments ——> Heartbreaking Sobs ——> Now You Want Him More = Rat Wants More Cheese ——> Send Him Texts (or message him, or try to chat with him, or do all of the above) ——> Dopamine Spikes While You Wait For a Reply——> No Reply ——> You Crash ——>  You “Stalk” Him More (cycle repeats.)

Or-

 He Replies ——> You Get Your Fix ——> You Want More ——> You “Stalk” Him More (cycle repeats.)

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Things that can increase your dopamine supply include (please note, this is *not* a list of recommendations – just information):

  • Caffeine
  • Dairy Products (hellooooo ice cream)
  • Alcohol
  • Cocaine
  • Orgasms
  • Pornography
  • Gambling
  • Risk Taking
  • Stalking him or her on Facebook, etc.
  • Sexting
  • Sugar
  • Avocados
  • Pumpkin Seeds
  • Wellbutrin
  • Massage
  • Brisk Exercise

Whether you are suffering from infatuation with the wrong person or the heartbreak of a failed relationship, you’ve got to find another source for your dopamine. Do not look up your old high school boyfriend or girlfriend!  Eat a damn pumpkin seed.   Take a brisk walk. Jump out of an airplane (with a parachute,) or even head to Starbucks. You get the picture. You’ve got to find a different source. It would be best if it didn’t come from another human being until you’ve actually grieved the loss of your prince or princess.

When new love does find you, surrendering to the love coma can work if you have a few lifeguards in place. Don’t get married, move in together, merge money, or make a baby (the 4-M’s) during the first 6 or more months of a new relationship and you’ll be much better prepared to find out whether or not you are really compatible with each other.  It’s always nice to know there really is long-term relationship potential before you are up to your neck in long-term commitments.

I don’t want to turn this post into a science fair project. I’m not going to get more nerdy on you.  If you want a dopamine geek fest check out this article.

All this is to say, if you are having trouble getting over a relationship or are flirting with the idea of starting something you know you shouldn’t, there’s more at work than weak will, bad decisions, or even soul mating.

More Articles in the geek zone…

Listen to Helen Fisher (the guru of  love chemicals) speak on the topic – this is a MUST!

The Brain in Love and Lust

How Love Works

Love in the Brain

 

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